Dream a Little Dream of Me

            I dreamt of you last night.  We were sitting with some other friends of mine and we stopped to sleep for the night in this alcove of rock and there were couches and mattresses and a t.v.  I woke up in the night and you were sitting next to me on the mattress lying beside the couch.  Just watching t.v.  Your arm was bare and I almost reached out to touch it when you spoke.  You said "I would like to go there".  You were speaking of a haunted lodge not far up the road from where we were.  I said let's go.  Normally I would have been afraid but you were so fearless that I always felt safe with you around.  Morning was coming quickly and the others were rising as well.  The little alcove turned into a real house with a hundred people getting up and getting breakfast together.  Some were familiar but I was focused on getting out of there with you.  The friends I came with were telling me what time I had to be back and you were saying not to worry about, that you had a breakfast burrito.  Two other girls got in the car with us carrying breakfast trays and I thought they would be loud and annoying but as soon as they got in they were so quiet they almost ceased to exist. 

           We rode in silence and I wish I had taken the opportunity to tell you then that I love you, that none of the parties, all the times we've shared would have been any fun without you nor will they ever be again.  But once again I failed to convey how much you mean to me.  How much I will miss you.  How much I already do.  I asked for you to come to my dreams and you did, thank you.  I am only sorry I didn't get to accomplish my goal.  When we lost you I began trying to define what our friendship was.  What you really meant to me.  There were times when it was good friendship, times when we were like brother and sister and even times when I felt like we could have been more.  I am sorry we didn't make it to the haunted lodge together.  It was time for me to wake up but I know the ghosts of the haunted lodge will have the best companion in you and so will the guests.  I am thankful that you parted with this realm in that fashion true to you, doing what you love.  A quiet death for you just wouldn't have been right for the larger than life guy you were. 

              Today I will honor you with dancing; in your style.  I just hope I can get my hands on some of that corny music.  I hope I have many more dreams of you because you are just too much damn fun.  The ghosts can't have it all baby.  I love you so much and you will never be forgotten.  I don't need to define our odd little super fun friendship, I am just thankful for it.  Much love to you my dear friend.  You will always have a place in my heart of hearts.  Come see me again soon pookie.  L'l k