I am not waiting, I have actually gone off in search of something that has been rumored to exist for many years.  The legend of the Amazing Wonderful Beautiful Life-loving Light-living Cova.  Some have returned from expeditions to this very place wide eyed with excitement claiming they have seen it.  Even touched it.  Now inspired by their journeys I have set out to go farther.  And when I arrive I intend to settle and spend the rest of my days there.  So far it has been a difficult road but I remain in high spirits that the trip and the destination with surpass all possible expectations of euphoria.  So much so that I shall have to invent a new word to describe the glory of it all.

What am I afraid of?  That is the question that I ask myself whenever I feel any degree of fear or anxiety.  Sometimes it takes a few minutes to get to the heart of the fear.  And then I have to question why I fear that.  Which always leads me back to myself.  I fear myself.  I fear what I could be.  The growth, the potential, the truth scares my ego.  And so to handle this fear I do a little excerise my teacher taught me when it is very strong, when I am really fearful.  But during the day or when I wake up in the morning with a little anxiety I just take a minute be present and aware with all my senses.  Which leads to the question "What is there to fear right now?" The answer to that question is usually nothing in this moment.  So then the fear or anxiety in my stomach just melts away and that is the most wonderful feeling.  Then I take a minute to be grateful and also to laugh. 

Asking that question of myself has led me to face my fears and it has also facilitated a major shift in my attitude from a victim of constant fear and indesicion to the motivated, confident and happy girl I am today.  

And now that I actually read the description for this q&r I completely misunderstood.  Oh Well!